Frustrated

Frustrated! I am just frustrated. I went to the Doctors yesterday and was weighed. I only lost 3 pounds more since I left work over a month ago. I know this is not where God wants me to stay. I know I am not at my healthy weight yet. I have to lose 15 more pounds at least. I really want to lose 20 more pounds. But that might be unrealistic. I am praying about it all, to see at what number God really wants me to be. But is it a number I must shoot for here? I do not think so. So what am I so frustrated about? Well my weight yes. But the things that are causing my weight is what I am most upset about today. I have been on cloud nine since I started Thin Within about 3 weeks ago. But, I had been losing weight before I started. I actually lost most of weight before I started. 16 pounds to be exact. Before Thin Within I was doing Weigh Down. Which is the same principal as Thin Within eating only when you are at 0 (they call it a stomach growl), and stopping when you are full. I did not like the way I always felt convicted when I used WD. I use to listen to the free WD videos online and I would feel so convicted all of the time. Thin Within calls this "Club of Condemnation". I didn't really focus on my heart towards life with WD. I only focused on my heart towards food. It was only when I found Thin Within by accident that I started to really deal with my heart issues about life. Thin Within's approach may seem the same at first as Weigh Down, but the heart of Thin Within is s different then the heart of Weigh Down. It is really like apples and oranges. Both fruit, but totally different!
So what does this have to do with why I am frustrated today? Well you see I like to bring out that club and beat myself a lot. If I do not see fast results and get instant relief, I tend to feel like a failure. Thus, the "club of condemnation" is always at an arms length reach for me to grab and club myself senseless with. I am actually beating myself with one hand and typing with the other right at this very moment. I feel like 3 pounds is hardly enough weight to release in the 4 week period since I last weighed myself. But hey it is still 3 pounds more that I lost and not 3 pounds that I gained right? Why am I so much of a control freak? Why do I beat myself up so much? I guess I have a lot to learn don't I? I have not arrived yet by any means. The last 20 pounds will be the ones that will come off slowly, with a vicious fight but they will come off. Because: "being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus" Philippians 1:6
I must not forget this. But, I sometimes do.
How about you? What frustrates you about this Thin Within journey you are on? Please write me back, I could use the encouragement today.
God bless you all on your journeys.

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28

"I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3:14