Life Has A Bite

Life has a way sometimes of sneaking up on you and biting you from behind. I was taken by surprise recently by life and bitten pretty hard. My oldest son is about to turn 17 next month. He is a wonderful young man, who is very talented in music. He plays several instruments, reads and writes beautiful music and has a passion for music. However, things have begun to change in his life this past year. He is a Junior in High School and is becoming a man. He thinks he knows everything, and has life figured out. You know, a typical teenager know it all! Up until he was in 6th grade he made wonderful decisions and had a strong sense of who God was. But when he hit middle school he began to question who God was. Is He even real? I was mortified. How could the son that raised his hands during worship as an infant, be questioning if there was even a God now as a young man? I am one of those people who raised their child on biblical principals, taught their Sunday School class and prayed and read the bible every night before bed with their child. Why was my son, my beautiful musician for Jesus son, questioning if there was a God? I immediately blamed myself. What did I do wrong? But truth is, God gave us a free will to decide as individuals who and what we choose to follow and believe in. My son is a man, he has a God given right to question and decide who and what God will be to him. God reminded me of my own teenage years. I too questioned and doubted and even strayed a little, but I came back. God lulled me back. He will lull my son back too. But the sting of this bite, this reality, that my son is questioning His faith is painful for me as a parent to watch. Because I still want to make all of his decisions for him, but I can't. I have to let go and step back. I have to stand on the sidelines and hope and pray that he will listen and hear the voice of God in his life. I know God is speaking to him, eventually he will hear what he has to say. Hopefully sooner rather than later. So today faithful readers, I covet your prayers for my son. Thank you.

"Direct your children onto the right path, and when they are older, they will not leave it." Proverbs 22:6