Back On Track

So.... I know it has been a while since I last wrote. A lot has been happening in my life that I just had to live out without writing for a while. I had to take it all in. Every inch of it... every moment of it. But, today here I am! Writing to relive the experience I gained through some of the moments I have lived in life. I am officially on Summer break. I have been spending most of my days enjoying the view at my Summer home on the Lake. I hope you enjoy the view also, with the picture I included.

I have decided to reread the book Thin Within as I laze around. I am realizing that we should never get to comfortable thinking we have conquered all of our weaknesses. You see I thought I had this eating thing under full control... but I was sadly mistaken. I discovered by rereading Thin Within that I have a long way to go. To be quite honest, I don't think I will ever fully get there. I still have "stinkin thinkin" in my head and heart about life, God and food. Yes, I faced many big issues in my life last Summer when I first discovered Thin Within. Yes, I no longer over eat and am overweight. Yes, many chains have fallen off of my life and I have been set free from heavy weights that pulled me down for many years. But.... there is more losing and releasing that must take place in my life. Sure, the obvious things have been dealt with. However, now the deeper digging starts. The peeling back of another layer in my life begins. Am I ready for this? God must think so, so I must believe that I can face another painful digging. I can, if He says I can.

So I am allowing God to shovel away at my heart of hearts again. To go deeper still. This time the digging is more complex, as if there is some cherished treasure that needs special care. The digging is slower and more deliberate. Like an excavation of uncovering some great worth. Could it be that I am of great worth.... that something lost deep down inside of me could be of great value and beauty?

I am anxious to see what God digs up from inside of me. Sure, it may be painful. But beauty is pain. I will go there... to that painful place of excavation and digging to see the beauty arise. I am ready, I ma back on track and ready!

“...Peace to you, do not be afraid. Your God and the God of your father has put treasure in your sacks for you..." Genesis 43:23

Is Anyone Out There?

I have been writing again but not getting any reply.... is anyone out there???
I would love to hear from you.... Let me know what you are thankful for today.

Being Thankful Always

So today is a new day. I realized something this morning... I only have 6 days left of work for the year and I am off for the Summer. I am relieved and sad at the same time. Relieved to be done and sad that I will not have a steady paycheck for two months. God always provides me with enough though to get me through the 2 months of no steady income.
I want to say focused today on being thankful for the things I have not dwelling hopelessly on the things I do not have.
I am thankful for a wonderful husband who is strong and courageous. I am thankful for two healthy boys to raise. I am thankful for my three homes. I am thankful for a mom who is still alive and well and such a blessing in my life. I am thankful for my two brothers and two sisters whom I love and cherish. I am thankful to have had a father that loved me unconditionally when he was alive. I am thankful for this blog and the wonderful people I have met through having it. All of those who follow me and whom I follow, thank you so much for inspiring me every day with your words. I am thankful today for words, the beautiful words that God inspires us to write and allows me to have eyes to read.

Blessings to you all my friends...

Multitudes On Monday

a href="http://www.aholyexperience.com" target="_blank">

It has been a while but I will continue on with my list:

301: Promises
302: Hope
303: Faith
304: Purity
305: Sincerity
306: Love
307: Compassion
308: Passion
309: Fire
310: Zeal

I pray every day I have all of these qualities listed on my list, in my life. That all of these small simple words that have great meaning play some kind of a role in all of my choices every day. That I may choose to live out the meanings of each word written on my list today.

"And give thanks for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ." Ephesians 5:20

What Is Your Passion?

I am amazed at all of the blogger's out there that find time every day to write... I was on a roll writing every day for quite some time them boom! All of a sudden it all stopped. Now I am back and I find it hard to find the time to write but I feel so much better when I do write.

I was born to write... Like a fish to water so is writing for me. I feel the most alive and full when I am writing. My goal since I was a little girl was to become a published author. I always felt that I would never achieve that goal, but now I feel so much better about my writing skills, because it is not about what I write really, it is about just writing in general. Knowing your passion and just doing it. Becoming who you are meant to be by following your passion is the key. I was meant to write. I am a writer. I know I have not been writing on my blog, but I have been writing in my journal every day sometimes twice a day.

So write me back, tell me what you have been doing lately in your life. I would love to hear from you. What is your passion?

Life Get's In The Way

Sometimes life can just be moving way to fast and get in the way of peace and serenity . Lately, life has been doing that to me. With all of the end of the year preparations at my job and all of the added responsibilities of opening up my Lake house for the year, two fighting dogs, a broken computer and two teenage boys preparing for finals and regents... phew life has been a little invasive to the peace I so crave.
I look out over the day and wonder will there be just one fleeting moment of stillness and catching of my breath? Then I remember... at least I still have breath within me to catch.
A few days ago a couple that comes to the facility where I teach Infant Care Classes, lost their son. He was only six years old. He was hit by a truck... twice. When I saw the report on the news and recognized the couple from classes where I teach, my heart broke. Broke into pieces. I fell down sobbing in my living room wondering how awful it must be to this young couple to lose their six year old baby boy. How senseless it all was. But life is like that... it gets in the way. It blindsides us sometimes and makes us gasp for air as we are sucker punched with tragedies, sorrows and things that just don't make sense. Yet, He is there. There for us to lean into when the many awful, ugly and painful things happen in our lives and the lives of those around us.
As I sit here and write this today I write through the thickness, through the fire and smoke... and find some clean air to breathe. Words are my breathe of fresh air. His living word revives my soul bringing illuminating light to darkness. I am thankful today for God's word when life gets in the way!

"Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path."
Psalm 119:105

It's Been Too Long...

I know I have been away for quite some time. I am sorry. I have been busy, plus my laptop is still broken. I never have time to get on my son's laptop... he is always on it. But today, he is out with friends so I am able to write, and it feels so good. I have all of these words bottled up inside of me. My life is crazy right now. Those of you who have been following me for a while know that last Summer my two beautiful dogs Chance and Jammer started fighting. Then as quick as they started fighting they stopped, and for nine glorious months not one tiff ensued between them until this Sunday, and boy was it quite the quarrel. They even drew blood. It was scary to say the least. Since Sunday I have been keeping them separate until I decide what to do next. I have talked to my vet and several others who are knowledgeable of these kinds of things and I have to tell you all of the options cost money.... So bottom line... please pray for me. Pray for my dogs that God will give me wisdom to know what to do.

For now I will just remember the things I am thankful for:

Hot Spring Days.
Lemons.
The fresh smell of clean laundry.
Computer time.
Friends to talk to.
Dogs to love (even when they fight).
A husband who celebrates his birthday tomorrow.
Two teenage sons to love.
A school year almost being over.
LOVE, LOVE, LOVE!!!

God's blessings to you all.